In February 2010, I had just moved into a tiny apartment in small-town Pardubice, in the Czech Republic. The only friend I had at the time came over, and we celebrated my move by opening a bottle of wine. We didn’t finish the bottle so I kept it on the kitchen counter.
I went through a difficult period of adjusting. I was feeling alone, and I didn’t really know what I was doing there anymore.
There was a time when the pain was too excruciating that the only thing I could do was to sit on my bed and look up through the roof window that my bedroom had at the time, straight up to the sky.
At that time, I didn’t consider myself a very spiritual person, but I have always been interested in topics like philosophy, psychology and the metaphysics since I was young.
So, while I was staring up at the sky, my physical body drained out of its energy, I questioned what I was doing there.
The only thing that I could do to ease that pain was to ask out loud, “What am I doing here?” Then, I continued, “Whoever you are, whatever you are, just show me.”
The minute after I asked that, I knew I had to keep both my mind and my heart open to any answer that come and be open to receiving them.
That was what started a series of changes in my life that had led me to grow into who I am today. Because, you see, to change is to grow.
What followed next in my story is what growth is about. Because, once you have made a dedication to grow, you will. But, first there are three things that you will need to go through before growth can happen.
I had taken a short break from blogging after that stirring Friday incident in Prague which I blogged about in my last post. I felt that I needed to get myself back to center, and so in a gentle manner, I allowed myself the space to be imperfect with a goal I’d wanted to upkeep – to write a blog post each week.
And it wasn’t just about the Prague incident. At the same time, two other things were happening in my personal life and in my business.
The first was a chance at reconnecting back again with a very dear friend of mine, whose friendship I’ve had to let go because of circumstances.